Take That Causality!

Oooh... A lesson in not changing history from Mr. I'm-my-own-grandpa! Let's get the hell out of here already. Screw history!
- Professor Farnsworth

What to say? I've wanted to post and keep up with this blog, but a lot of the things that are going on presently are intensely personal, more so than I'd care to share on a blog that no one reads but me. Things that are hard to put into words, let alone talk about. So I'll be brief, and I'll be vague, and if anyone feels like talking about it in private with me, well than do so.

There are certain people who have done some things in the last couple of weeks that have hurt me immensely. There are some folks who have gone out of their way to help me. There are certain people who continue to confuse and amaze me greatly. There are people who have lied their face off to me. There are some people who have been nothing but honest with me, but still have only succeeded in muddling the water. There are some people that I feel I'm losing touch with, despite my best efforts not to. There are other folks who I wish would just leave me alone. Some of this stuff is my fault, some of it isn't, and a lot of it is utterly beyond my control.

Life these last couple of weeks has been almost utterly contradictory, and confusing. Despite that, however, its also had some of the most amazing moments I've experienced in a long time. I've gone from being completely depressed out of my mind, to laughing my ass off hours later. That said, in my heart I know things can't last forever. I can only continue to do try and accomplish the things I want to do this summer and hope that in the end its enough.