I'm a friggen idiot.

I don't know how the hell this happened. I checked the damn schedule three times. I could have sworn in front of a court of law that I was scheduled to work at 5 to close today, and that I was supposed to do a 9:30 to 5 shift on Monday. Well it looks like I'm a damn retard. Thats next week schedule, I was supposed to do an open to 5 shift today, and not work the rest of the week off. I just don't know how I could have mixed this up. I'm usually so careful about this, now I feel terrible. I'm in deep shit here for not showing up for my scheduled shift, I've lost even more hours thanks to my mistake, and my pleas for more hours are falling on completly deef ears now.

Whats worse is now I've only gotten 11 hours for this week, and next week I've only got 18. No one wants to hear about the cut in hours now thanks to my own stupidity. To them I'm just a complete mistake now, and why give more hours to someone so unresponsible. Not to mention the fact that I've completly blown my first impression with the new Technology manager.

Damnit, I already feel like a failure working at this place, now I feel even more of a failure for failing at a failure of a job. I'm sure that made almost no sense to anyone out there, but thats how I feel. No one will even talk to me about it, all I get is, 'We'll talk to you about it on Thursday.'

Right now I feel like just crawling into a hole somewhere and dying. *sigh*